The Girl Next Door

Let me just start off by saying i really fell off the b*tch wagon, but a lot has happened in a year. I'm sure my "vast" audience really could care less about my love life/school life/social life because those who DO read this read it for the sole purpose of my bitching. Unless any of y'all wanna hear about my life, i'm gonna keep my entries purely bitch related. Anyway on to the bitching:

Let me start off by saying i cannot stand Angelina Jolie. I do not think the woman is beautiful. She looks like a used up hooker and honestly who really thinks that is hot? Obviously 90% of the country. Yeah, she a good will ambassador and she's doing great things for people in third world countries but when i see her all i can think of is her making out with fucking Billy Bob Thorton wearing his fucking blood around her neck. Then after they break up suddenly she's all "Saint Angelina"?? Secondly, what's with adopting all these kids in every developing country in the world? I mean sure i think it's great that she's giving these kids a better life that they would never have if they stayed where they were born but I lost all respect for her the second she gave birth to Shiloh in Africa and now her fucking wonder twins in France. What is this woman trying to say? That her own country isn't worth the time or day of her precious children? What's wrong with her children being born in an American hospital??? It's not like she was in another country and she suddenly went into labor, oh no! She fucking flys over to these places a day before she's due and waits til she goes into labor and then gives birth. She friggen planned on having her kids in these foreign countries. 

Now before I go on I think i need to really explain myself, esp if some of you are hard core Angelina lovers. For a woman who loves children and wants to help those less fortunate why is she not adopting a child from America or at least having a child here? Yeah America is not a developing country but sadly there are thousands of children that are not being adopted here and they are just as poor as those in developing countries. Personally if you want to be a good will ambassador, start at home, see how the not-so-priviledged people live. Even if you don't want to adopt, donate a large amount to Boys and Girls Club of America or something to help the poor kids of this country stay off the streets. Yet this woman doesn't consider our children that important obviously. Or what about the kids in US territories or Mexico or Nicaragua? I might sound ignorant right now but honestly this woman is one big contradiction. One second she's working with Unicef, being Saint Angelina and the next she's playing up the sex symbol movie star in all of these action movies. If she really wants to commit to this unicef thing, then commit completely or stick to doing movies and playing house with nasty ass Brad Pitt. That's another person who is so not attractive along with Patrick Dempsey. The only thing Brad Pitt has over Pretty Boy Dempsey is that Brad Pitt has appeared in some awesome movies. Snatch, for example, blew my mind. Alright, i'm done. What Not to Wear is on and i need to ridicule people who have no sense of fashion. If you read please comment so I can be prompted to write again.

I'll be honest, my life has been pretty screwed up. I'm partially ready to go back to school, and then part of me isn't. I'm always choosing Mr. Wrong, or so it feels. I'm constantly getting hurt by men, and i truthfully cannot tell you why. I've settled down so much since my first year of college, my heart has been stomped on by the man I loved for three years, and someone else is hot and cold with me. I don't really want to keep getting hurt (then again, who really does) but for some reason, God finds it nesscessary. It must be his idea of fun. Yet, even though i'm not quite ready for something major, I do want to settle down- eventually. It's not my main concern at the moment tho. I do have someone that despite my best efforts, has gotten himself under my skin, even if he doesn't know it. Part of me wishes he does, just so he'd know where he stands. But with my track record, he's gonna do a nifty little jig on my heart with hobnailed boots just like the rest. I truthfully don't understand what the main issue is. Maybe it's because i'm too aggressive and impatient. I don't know how to relax and go with the flow. I really need to work on becoming a more zen like person. 

The other part of me is really worrying about what my sorority sisters think of me. I made big mistakes my first year, and now i regret them totally. If I knew what was going to happen, I never would have done half the things i did. To my sisters- I am sorry. I have changed completely and I want to work on getting backinto the groove of things with all of you, esp my pledge sisters.